He Only Takes The Best

I am not a eloquent writer to begin with but excuse any confusing part of this post, as I know tears are going to be shed while typing.

About 9 years ago among my panic of being pregnant with my first child, I devoured the Internet in search of advice and any detail I could find.

I discovered chat rooms on MSN. After not finding people I liked, I decided to make one of my own. Mommies 2 Be was born. (M2B for short)

It didn't take long to become one of the biggest mom chat rooms on MSN. I met tons of fabulous women through there. Every time a mama had her baby, we would change the topic of the room to welcome that baby to the world. Every mama loved it. One of those mama's is who this blog post is about.

Around the time I had my oldest daughter a new face came to M2B. Sweet Holly. She just found out she was pregnant with her first child and she couldn't be more excited.

I remember one day (a day I will never forget), she came to the chat room and was telling me how she was having discharge an heavy cramping. I told her she needed to call her doctor asap because she was describing her mucus plug and contractions to a T. She panicked and called. Doc told her to go to the hospital so that is where she went. And that is the last we had heard from her for days.

We ended up banning her sister from the chat room because she was telling us Holly had gone into preterm labor and had the baby. We didn't know it was Holly's sister and we didn't believe her. We thought she was a troll. When we found out it really did happen we felt horrible.

Tons and tons of prayers went up for her little boys survival, and I am happy to say that he is a handsome 8 year old.

Which brings me to now. Holly and her husband had wanted another baby. Make their family complete by becoming a family of 4. But that didn't come without a fight. They ended up having to go to IVF.

Around November, Holly posted a video with Dustin announcing he was going to be a big brother. Holly was finally pregnant!!

Her pregnancy didn't come without it's scares. She had started going into preterm labor at around 18 weeks. She went and had a cerclage put in and was ordered to be on bedrest. She was to only remove herself from bed to use the bathroom!

Each week passed and we all cheered for each week she passed because that meant one more week her sweet baby grew healthier.

Holly was beyond excited to make it passed 25 weeks as she had never been that pregnant. She watched from her bed as her baby's nursery was completed by he husband, family & friends. Shopped for decorations online and prepared herself for bringing home a healthy baby. Last Saturday she had her baby shows. She has never been to her own baby shower pregnant. What a leap! She had a baby shower and finished the final touches on the nursery and the travel system was delivered.

We cheered for her as she hit 30 weeks and then 31.

We don't like week 31 anymore because week 31 is where life as Holly knew it Changed forever.

My amazingly strong friend went to the doctor on Wednesday April 6, 2011 to find her baby's heart not beating.

Holly underwent a cesarian section that evening to give birth to her daughter.





Now Holly must face life without the daughter she so dearly wanted and loved and spoiled. Instead of bringing home a healthy baby, she must now plan funeral arrangements and face life back at square one. How do you explain to an 8 year old that his little sister will never come home.

This family will never be the same and will always be broken. A child that was so dearly wanted and loved even before she would have taken her first breath has earned her wings before her time.

No words will ever ease their pain and nothing will ever make life complete.

So if you are reading this, please say a prayer or send up some thoughts for this family. They need all they can get right now.