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Saturday, May 21, 2011
The Rapture Is Here...
And I'm still alive. Go figure.
Can't wait to see the chaos that 2012 brings...
(I know I haven't blogged in a month, a big giant update will be coming soon...)
Can't wait to see the chaos that 2012 brings...
(I know I haven't blogged in a month, a big giant update will be coming soon...)
Saturday, April 9, 2011
He Only Takes The Best
I am not a eloquent writer to begin with but excuse any confusing part of this post, as I know tears are going to be shed while typing.
About 9 years ago among my panic of being pregnant with my first child, I devoured the Internet in search of advice and any detail I could find.
I discovered chat rooms on MSN. After not finding people I liked, I decided to make one of my own. Mommies 2 Be was born. (M2B for short)
It didn't take long to become one of the biggest mom chat rooms on MSN. I met tons of fabulous women through there. Every time a mama had her baby, we would change the topic of the room to welcome that baby to the world. Every mama loved it. One of those mama's is who this blog post is about.
Around the time I had my oldest daughter a new face came to M2B. Sweet Holly. She just found out she was pregnant with her first child and she couldn't be more excited.
I remember one day (a day I will never forget), she came to the chat room and was telling me how she was having discharge an heavy cramping. I told her she needed to call her doctor asap because she was describing her mucus plug and contractions to a T. She panicked and called. Doc told her to go to the hospital so that is where she went. And that is the last we had heard from her for days.
We ended up banning her sister from the chat room because she was telling us Holly had gone into preterm labor and had the baby. We didn't know it was Holly's sister and we didn't believe her. We thought she was a troll. When we found out it really did happen we felt horrible.
Tons and tons of prayers went up for her little boys survival, and I am happy to say that he is a handsome 8 year old.
Which brings me to now. Holly and her husband had wanted another baby. Make their family complete by becoming a family of 4. But that didn't come without a fight. They ended up having to go to IVF.
Around November, Holly posted a video with Dustin announcing he was going to be a big brother. Holly was finally pregnant!!
Her pregnancy didn't come without it's scares. She had started going into preterm labor at around 18 weeks. She went and had a cerclage put in and was ordered to be on bedrest. She was to only remove herself from bed to use the bathroom!
Each week passed and we all cheered for each week she passed because that meant one more week her sweet baby grew healthier.
Holly was beyond excited to make it passed 25 weeks as she had never been that pregnant. She watched from her bed as her baby's nursery was completed by he husband, family & friends. Shopped for decorations online and prepared herself for bringing home a healthy baby. Last Saturday she had her baby shows. She has never been to her own baby shower pregnant. What a leap! She had a baby shower and finished the final touches on the nursery and the travel system was delivered.
We cheered for her as she hit 30 weeks and then 31.
We don't like week 31 anymore because week 31 is where life as Holly knew it Changed forever.
My amazingly strong friend went to the doctor on Wednesday April 6, 2011 to find her baby's heart not beating.
Holly underwent a cesarian section that evening to give birth to her daughter.
Now Holly must face life without the daughter she so dearly wanted and loved and spoiled. Instead of bringing home a healthy baby, she must now plan funeral arrangements and face life back at square one. How do you explain to an 8 year old that his little sister will never come home.
This family will never be the same and will always be broken. A child that was so dearly wanted and loved even before she would have taken her first breath has earned her wings before her time.
No words will ever ease their pain and nothing will ever make life complete.
So if you are reading this, please say a prayer or send up some thoughts for this family. They need all they can get right now.
About 9 years ago among my panic of being pregnant with my first child, I devoured the Internet in search of advice and any detail I could find.
I discovered chat rooms on MSN. After not finding people I liked, I decided to make one of my own. Mommies 2 Be was born. (M2B for short)
It didn't take long to become one of the biggest mom chat rooms on MSN. I met tons of fabulous women through there. Every time a mama had her baby, we would change the topic of the room to welcome that baby to the world. Every mama loved it. One of those mama's is who this blog post is about.
Around the time I had my oldest daughter a new face came to M2B. Sweet Holly. She just found out she was pregnant with her first child and she couldn't be more excited.
I remember one day (a day I will never forget), she came to the chat room and was telling me how she was having discharge an heavy cramping. I told her she needed to call her doctor asap because she was describing her mucus plug and contractions to a T. She panicked and called. Doc told her to go to the hospital so that is where she went. And that is the last we had heard from her for days.
We ended up banning her sister from the chat room because she was telling us Holly had gone into preterm labor and had the baby. We didn't know it was Holly's sister and we didn't believe her. We thought she was a troll. When we found out it really did happen we felt horrible.
Tons and tons of prayers went up for her little boys survival, and I am happy to say that he is a handsome 8 year old.
Which brings me to now. Holly and her husband had wanted another baby. Make their family complete by becoming a family of 4. But that didn't come without a fight. They ended up having to go to IVF.
Around November, Holly posted a video with Dustin announcing he was going to be a big brother. Holly was finally pregnant!!
Her pregnancy didn't come without it's scares. She had started going into preterm labor at around 18 weeks. She went and had a cerclage put in and was ordered to be on bedrest. She was to only remove herself from bed to use the bathroom!
Each week passed and we all cheered for each week she passed because that meant one more week her sweet baby grew healthier.
Holly was beyond excited to make it passed 25 weeks as she had never been that pregnant. She watched from her bed as her baby's nursery was completed by he husband, family & friends. Shopped for decorations online and prepared herself for bringing home a healthy baby. Last Saturday she had her baby shows. She has never been to her own baby shower pregnant. What a leap! She had a baby shower and finished the final touches on the nursery and the travel system was delivered.
We cheered for her as she hit 30 weeks and then 31.
We don't like week 31 anymore because week 31 is where life as Holly knew it Changed forever.
My amazingly strong friend went to the doctor on Wednesday April 6, 2011 to find her baby's heart not beating.
Holly underwent a cesarian section that evening to give birth to her daughter.
Now Holly must face life without the daughter she so dearly wanted and loved and spoiled. Instead of bringing home a healthy baby, she must now plan funeral arrangements and face life back at square one. How do you explain to an 8 year old that his little sister will never come home.
This family will never be the same and will always be broken. A child that was so dearly wanted and loved even before she would have taken her first breath has earned her wings before her time.
No words will ever ease their pain and nothing will ever make life complete.
So if you are reading this, please say a prayer or send up some thoughts for this family. They need all they can get right now.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Honesty
2 things that I am: Honest & Caring.
I am an opinionated person. I will Honestly tell you how I feel and what I am thinking or give my thoughts. I have no reason to do otherwise. This can turn to be a good and bad thing.
Sometimes what I say can come out wrong or be taken the wrong way. It might even hurt some feelings. But that is never my intention. And it's up to me to realize when things come out wrong and apologize and re-explain myself. Sometimes it takes someone else pointing out when I said something wrong.
Now, if people accept the apology is a whole other story.
Recently a friend of mine told me she was pregnant. She just had a baby in June. Her other two children are 2 & 3 (maybe even 4). So this makes baby number 4! (maybe even 4 & 5) she is always saying how stressed out she is and how her oldest has a naughty mouth and that none of the kids listen etc. So imagine my shock when she told me she was pregnant again. Especially after just giving birth in June.
Without hesitating I told her she was nuts and that I would go crazy. Hell I even told her "birth control perhaps" and she just laughed. She knew I meant no harm.
But then I posted about this incident somewhere else and people where very quick to take offense about "how rude I was".
See the good thing about my friends is they understand me and they know if they want an honest opinion they can come to me because I am not scared to tell you what I think. What good would come if I lied??
I am very caring and thoughtful as well I could be in sorry shape but willing to do what I can to help someone who is in a similar crappy situation. I am the type of person to give you the shirt on my back if it was necessary.
I may seem like I am a cold hearted person, but that is not the case. I am probably one of the nicest people you could know.
Don't let the hard exterior fool you!!
I am an opinionated person. I will Honestly tell you how I feel and what I am thinking or give my thoughts. I have no reason to do otherwise. This can turn to be a good and bad thing.
Sometimes what I say can come out wrong or be taken the wrong way. It might even hurt some feelings. But that is never my intention. And it's up to me to realize when things come out wrong and apologize and re-explain myself. Sometimes it takes someone else pointing out when I said something wrong.
Now, if people accept the apology is a whole other story.
Recently a friend of mine told me she was pregnant. She just had a baby in June. Her other two children are 2 & 3 (maybe even 4). So this makes baby number 4! (maybe even 4 & 5) she is always saying how stressed out she is and how her oldest has a naughty mouth and that none of the kids listen etc. So imagine my shock when she told me she was pregnant again. Especially after just giving birth in June.
Without hesitating I told her she was nuts and that I would go crazy. Hell I even told her "birth control perhaps" and she just laughed. She knew I meant no harm.
But then I posted about this incident somewhere else and people where very quick to take offense about "how rude I was".
See the good thing about my friends is they understand me and they know if they want an honest opinion they can come to me because I am not scared to tell you what I think. What good would come if I lied??
I am very caring and thoughtful as well I could be in sorry shape but willing to do what I can to help someone who is in a similar crappy situation. I am the type of person to give you the shirt on my back if it was necessary.
I may seem like I am a cold hearted person, but that is not the case. I am probably one of the nicest people you could know.
Don't let the hard exterior fool you!!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Do we stay or do we go
There comes a time in life where you have to make decisions. Big ones, small ones, life altering, or just moment changing.
But the big life changing ones are the ones that I struggle with. And unfortunately, I am being faced with far too many of them.
And I'm overwhelmed.
I am only one person and it's becoming too much. It's so frustrating. Yes, I have a wonderful man by my side and we make decisions together, but one of those decisions is about him.
See, a few years ago we went through a part of life that nearly killed me. He cheated and I turned into an evil psycho. I was not myself. I eventually got over it but as I started moving on, he came back to me and said that he made a huge mistake and he wanted to be with me. So I did.
But it just hasnt been the same. I am not fully trustworthy of him. And I know that's crazy. That was like 5 years ago. But it's still affecting me and I don't know how to get passed it.
I love him, but I just don't know what to do.
How do you make life altering big decisions that could affect your life for the rest of your life.
So frustrating.
But the big life changing ones are the ones that I struggle with. And unfortunately, I am being faced with far too many of them.
And I'm overwhelmed.
I am only one person and it's becoming too much. It's so frustrating. Yes, I have a wonderful man by my side and we make decisions together, but one of those decisions is about him.
See, a few years ago we went through a part of life that nearly killed me. He cheated and I turned into an evil psycho. I was not myself. I eventually got over it but as I started moving on, he came back to me and said that he made a huge mistake and he wanted to be with me. So I did.
But it just hasnt been the same. I am not fully trustworthy of him. And I know that's crazy. That was like 5 years ago. But it's still affecting me and I don't know how to get passed it.
I love him, but I just don't know what to do.
How do you make life altering big decisions that could affect your life for the rest of your life.
So frustrating.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Twitter Me!!
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Saturday, March 26, 2011
Cell Phones, blogs, Social Networks, oh my
In this day, it is hard to find someone not attached to their cell phone, unless they are an elderly person. Hell, kids as young as 5 are begging to have a cell phone.
Thankfully my 8 year old could care less if she has one or not. She borrows her brothers when she goes to a friends house.
I on the other hand am guilty on multiple levels. I am highly addicted to my iPhone and can hardly go 10 minutes without looking at it. I am constantly texting or checking Facebook. And it has caused some tension in my relationship. He claims I spend more time on my phone & the truth is, I have become more reliant on doing things on my phone (like this blog post) instead of doing things with my husband. (I bet he would have a different tune if I was one of those kick ass bloggers that made lots of my doing this!) The sad thing is, I don't know how to put it away and leave it alone.
In a day when the whole world practically relies on the use of a computer or a cell phone, it's no wonder why everyone has gone googoo for technology. It seems like there is nothing you cant do from a cell phone.
So how do you pull yourself away from all the ways to communicate that don't require talking? I am having a hard time figuring this put. Is it bad that I would rather text than actually talk. Maybe it's because I am always busy that an actual conversation would slow me down.
I dont know but what would happen to people as the way we communicate if all of a sudden cell phones and Internet stopped working?? Would people in this day and age be able to handle it. Especially the kids.
My answer is No. What's yours??
Thankfully my 8 year old could care less if she has one or not. She borrows her brothers when she goes to a friends house.
I on the other hand am guilty on multiple levels. I am highly addicted to my iPhone and can hardly go 10 minutes without looking at it. I am constantly texting or checking Facebook. And it has caused some tension in my relationship. He claims I spend more time on my phone & the truth is, I have become more reliant on doing things on my phone (like this blog post) instead of doing things with my husband. (I bet he would have a different tune if I was one of those kick ass bloggers that made lots of my doing this!) The sad thing is, I don't know how to put it away and leave it alone.
In a day when the whole world practically relies on the use of a computer or a cell phone, it's no wonder why everyone has gone googoo for technology. It seems like there is nothing you cant do from a cell phone.
So how do you pull yourself away from all the ways to communicate that don't require talking? I am having a hard time figuring this put. Is it bad that I would rather text than actually talk. Maybe it's because I am always busy that an actual conversation would slow me down.
I dont know but what would happen to people as the way we communicate if all of a sudden cell phones and Internet stopped working?? Would people in this day and age be able to handle it. Especially the kids.
My answer is No. What's yours??
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